aaaaaaaa! what i weekend... i went over Aaron's on sunday for the party. it was good. i watched some of the race like 28 laps or something. i spend some time with Aaron. than he's sister and brother came. and we watched the race in Aaron's room. than the boys play hanky sack, while amber and me and stacy were on the bed. omg amber was soo hipper!!! and than his mom turned on cartoons for the kids and everyone went out and watched the race. but i stayed and watched the kids. ashley called 4 times and called aaron's cell. she was complinaing that i should be over her house and not over aarons. grrr i hate her right now!!! she's being such a butt!!! now cuz of her i was mad i didn't have a good time and i snaped at Aaron so he's kinda mad at me! great that's just great! and if that wasn't bad enough now i have to re-do my senior project AGAIN!! great just great! i love it. NNNNNOOOOOOOOTTTTTTTTT!!!!

today i didn't drive Aaron to school. he had to stay home and watch amber. i'm supose to go to the garage after school and than to he's house later. i hope i can go... i really want to spend time with him.

umm v-day was good... i went over Aaron's house. Alan and stacy were there to. that was o.k. we watched moives and have "fun". it was good. i had a really good time. and on sunday i get to go over he's house for a nascar party! i can't wait!!!

" i don't pretend to know what love is for everyone, but i can tell you what it is for me. love is knowing all about someone, and still wanting to be with them more than any other person. love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about yourself, including the things you might be ashamed of. love is feeling comfortable and safe with someone, but still get weak in the knees when they walk into a room and smile at you."

-unknown-

nerr why do guys always have to be butts? why it's not so hard to hug and kiss u're girlfriend once and a while... all i want is to spend some time with him. i want to take him out on the 6th for are 3 month but i don't think i am. plus he's proably working or doesn't want to go. i proably won't be doing anything for valintines day either! i send him an e-card and i wanted to give him love coupons but i'm not cuz he won't use them anyway.... :( he get's sooo pissed off really easly! and i don't know why. he doesn't want to talk. he doesn't do anything that he used to. and now this week end i have to take ashley to mark's house so she can have "fun" and than to the fun center. great she gets to have fun but i don't. no i'll be all by my self. the 3rd wheel cuz Aaron's going to a party!!! and taking antinette to an other party. he'd rather go to a party than have fun with me. yay i'm glade i'm so important!!! gag... i want the old Aaron back. i don't like the pissed off leave me alone, i don't care, ohwell, whatever Aaron.

SANDY'S 17TH BIRTHDAY!!!!

yesterday i went home early i didn't want to be in school. me and Aaron are o.k now. he read my e-mail and we talked on the phone. and we talked about ryan and stuff so i think were good now. idk

nerr i hate this week! me and Aaron u're fighting! we have been for a while. he hasn't been paying any attaination to me, he leaves almost everyday in homeroom and when he is there he doesn't hug or kiss me anymore like he used to. at lunch he doesn't come over anymore, and when he does he doesn't say anything to me. why i don't know. i don't know what i did. i feel like he doesn't want to be with me anymore.  and yesterday Aaron thought that i was cheating on him with Ryan. i wasn't. i was taking him to go and get a lighter so he could smoke. Aaron saw him walking to my car with me and he took it the wrong way. nerrr i felt like such a butt when i found out that's why he was mad this morning in homeroom. i hate this! i don't want to be here right now! i wrote him an e-mail hopefully he will read it. idk i just want MY AARON back. i want him to be happy to be with me like he was when he asked me out. but he doesn't hug and kiss me in homeroom anymore and he doesn't wait for me after lunch anymore and he doesn't talk to me after lunch either, like he used to. i miss that. i miss him. i hate fighting. i just want to go home.